vulnerable

20170523-23:47:31.svt

i just want to cuddle people… just wanna be a little cutie… hfff…

pick me up… hold me in your arms… i love being picked up… i'm just too big ;w;

i wanna be petted and cuddled….. taken to a cute room full of pink things… tickled…

take me… i'm yours if you treat me right… and i don't have the energy to get revenge right now…

pet me… brush my hair…. i need it… i need someone who will care for me… make me feel like i'm their little girl… i need someone… please… i know i've been a naughty girl… but will you forgive me? cuddle me? pet me? make me feel small? gah… this hurts too much… can i go back to being a little kid? pleeeaassseeee?

everything hurts… let me snuggle you… pet me… make me feel small… hfff… uuughhh… everything for a cuddle… everything for a fleeting moment of sweet, innocent happiness… untainted by adult thoughts… *buries her face in her hands and cries* i want my untainted, mild manner back… i just want to chuckle like a little kid again… i just want to be a little kid again.

plushies!! (well, a plushy)

please don't hurt me… i promise i won't hurt you… i know i probably don't but… do i look like a girl? i'm sowwy i don't look pretty…

i don't like how my body appears to be turning into that of a grown man while my mind stays so small and needy… and i've become really aggressive… :( i have a shorter temper than ever before and i hate that… i really hate being able to hurt people… rrgghhhh…

reinhilde really hates doing things for her husky... but she has to publish this...

20171111-03:25:27.svt

Tucked away, in the back of my imagination, is an idyllic land. No one there has to grow up if they don't have to. The last world war was fought over improperly prepared bacon and the death count was equally small (at 0). In this dreamy land, you top out at a height you can cope with being, and you don't have to have a body of the wrong gender. And you're treated like a little puppy if you need to be. The scenery is vast, and impressive, but not imposing.

In it, I'm still a kid. And everyone pets me and holds me and calls me “lil cutie girl.”

Too bad it's just dreams and daydreams.

Because I really need to be a cute little kid again.

Can't a little husky pup just have her glory days back?

All this hate, resentment, worry, pain… Tears me apart…

I wanna be a sweet and innocent little husky girl…

I wanna be a smiley little cutie pie…

I overeat because at least food is guaranteed to make me a bit happy… But eating too much makes you fat… and I weigh 135+ kg. I just wanna be a tiny little cutie pie… but I'm tall, wide, old, wrinkly, resentful, hateful, angry, unstable… this just isn't me… I'm supposed to be a fluffy little puppy… Always happy, always forgiving, always a good girl for my friends, always nice to cuddle… I wanna be so cute and innocent, and not so smart that I get resentful of everyone and angry at everything… I wanna be ticklish and soft, not corrosive and stiff… I want my childhood back… I need my childhood back… I'll do anything for a fleeting moment of immaturity, of emptiness, of naïveté…

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